Grace Uncommon shared this quote on her Facebook page this morning, spoke right to me!
I tend to be a quiet shy type of person, I guess they call that an introvert, I also prefer to be a peace-maker and not a ruffle feathers person, hate conflict. However, I am also good at keeping secrets because I myself tend to be a private person. But those things cause me to be a guarded person and also not trust a lot of people, not due to fault of their own but because of my fault of a few people that have hurt me. So I built walls of protection around me to keep safe, or at least think I am being safe. Because of my walls, it can cause me to not build relationships with others. I need to remember I am free, Christ as set me free (Galations 5:1 For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.)
Do you sometimes not do something because you start to think, well maybe…? Well I tend to do that sometimes. I get in my own way of serving or doing ministry or even getting to know someone, because I let doubts start sneaking in on me. Which I know are not from God, but even though my head knows this, sometimes hard to overcome them, but it is possible to overcome. If only I ask for help from the ONE. Another thing that stops me is somebody will say or do something that isn’t Christ like and I get turned off and close up, instead of being confidant of who I am, I will start to run away. I forget I have the Holy Spirit dwelling in me, these things can be fought and won. (Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.)
None of those doubts, naysayers, and accusers is from God, that is the evil one attacking me, and when I recognize that I need to stand confident and firm in my foundation and ask the ONE who I know is true and let Him lead and show me the way. (2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.)
Lord knows I am not perfect, so why do I put expectation on others? I tend to put high expectations on myself, and that is not going to get me anywhere I am learning. Oh this journey can be tough sometimes, but it is a learning one and this journey of mine is helping me to be a better person, to be like Christ and that is who I am called to be like and desire to be. He is the lover of my soul and savior, who died to give me a future of eternity in beautiful place of Heaven. However my flesh often gets in the way, but the more I stay in connection with Christ the stronger I am, because of Him. The more I seek the ONE above and keep my focus on the things above and not here, the more confident I am in who I am and what I should be doing here to shine the light. Because at times this world can seem dark, but God wants us to be like lights and outshine the darkness so His love can overflow. (John 1:5The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.)
So it’s time to let those walls down I have built so strong around me to protect me from hurts and fears, and because who God made me to be. These walls have got in the way for too long! Maybe I am the only that struggles in this? If not, will you join me? Let’s pray together, encourage one another, and let our walls down and shine the light that Jesus gave us! Spread His love and joy! Give grace and help one another! Let’s become #heartsisters (1 Thessalonians 5:11 So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.)